I rarely talk about my mother's illness publicly, as I think she feels embarrassed for people to know about it. However, I know that it's because of the stigma that goes with mental illness, and as a way to fight against that stigma I feel it's my place to educate those who may not know all the facts about schizoaffective disorder.
SD is a mental illness that involves the hallucinations and delusions of Schizophrenia, combined with mood disorders like bipolar disorder. It's treatable, but not curable yet.
The stigma that goes along with just the schizophrenic part of this disease is frustrating enough. Schizophrenia is not "multiple personalities". It's also twice as common as HIV/AIDS.
My mother suffers from this disease, and while she's normal 99% of the time thanks to her medicine, every once in a while her body builds up an immunity to her medicine and it has to be adjusted. Sometimes this requires a hospital stay. The last couple of days she's not been doing so good and I worry about her constantly. I'm praying that she won't have to go back into the hospital. Any prayers would be appreciated.
For anyone that wants to learn more about mental illness, check out www.nami.org. NAMI is the National Alliance on Mental Illness.
Also, I'm feeling very stressed out about school. I thought I wouldn't have to be paying back my student loans until I graduated, but I'm already having to make payments a year before I graduate. And I thought that since I got $998 back from financial aid money, that I was covered and wouldn't owe anything else for this payment period, but I just received a bill for over $3,500. Its not due until March and I'm calling monday to see if I can make payments. If not I'll have to take out a loan, which will be frustrating. I'm glad I got this job at The Voice because I couldn't have been able to make these payments before. When the cafe sells and I get my backpay it will go towards paying for school either way.
I'm trying to stay positive through prayer and the support of my loved ones. It helps to have a blog to vent it out to.
"Thou therefore endure hardness, as a good soldier of Jesus Christ." 2 Timothy 2:3
Friday, January 28, 2011
Thursday, January 27, 2011
The Tides of Time.
So much has changed in the last year or so that I decided to just start another blog. It seems like an appropriate metaphor, since I essentially feel like I started over in my life.
When I last posted a blog, I was married, still working at the cafe, and just starting school. Oh where to begin...First off, I started going back to church.
In April, my husband and I separated. I won't publicly state why, but I will say that if anyone else has gotten married young or is living with a lot of anger and is doubting their marriage, and they need someone to talk to, I'm hear to talk to you if you want. I also met my weight loss goal in April.
In June, I met Brent, a co-worker of my brother. We started talking and I figured out that he was exactly the kind of man I should have been looking for all along.
In July, I got a tattoo on my leg to cover the one I had of my ex's name. This one is of a rose with a banner that reads: 1 Corinthians 13:4. This was to remind myself what God really meant for love to be like. On a similar note, I officially started dating Brent.
In October my divorce was final.
In January I learned that the cafe wouldn't be able to make it much longer, and started looking for another job. Remember that part time job at the paper I mentioned last year? Well, it happened this year. The week I started here the cafe closed. I miss it, and I miss Nina, but we still keep in touch.
Lately, I've been trying to be stronger as a Christian. I'm trying to go to church every sunday, and I've been trying to read my Bible more and more. So, instead of giving you LOL's like I did before, I'll end each blog with a Bible verse. I've not got much else to say right now, so I think I'll leave the first post short and sweet.
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
When I last posted a blog, I was married, still working at the cafe, and just starting school. Oh where to begin...First off, I started going back to church.
In April, my husband and I separated. I won't publicly state why, but I will say that if anyone else has gotten married young or is living with a lot of anger and is doubting their marriage, and they need someone to talk to, I'm hear to talk to you if you want. I also met my weight loss goal in April.
In June, I met Brent, a co-worker of my brother. We started talking and I figured out that he was exactly the kind of man I should have been looking for all along.
In July, I got a tattoo on my leg to cover the one I had of my ex's name. This one is of a rose with a banner that reads: 1 Corinthians 13:4. This was to remind myself what God really meant for love to be like. On a similar note, I officially started dating Brent.
In October my divorce was final.
In January I learned that the cafe wouldn't be able to make it much longer, and started looking for another job. Remember that part time job at the paper I mentioned last year? Well, it happened this year. The week I started here the cafe closed. I miss it, and I miss Nina, but we still keep in touch.
Lately, I've been trying to be stronger as a Christian. I'm trying to go to church every sunday, and I've been trying to read my Bible more and more. So, instead of giving you LOL's like I did before, I'll end each blog with a Bible verse. I've not got much else to say right now, so I think I'll leave the first post short and sweet.
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
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